Thoughts...

For some reason, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the word “Vulnerable.” Defined as being capable of or susceptible to being wounded or hurt. What eventually happens when you’ve been hurt too many times in the past and are naturally sick of being vulnerable? You find yourself building up a wall of defense. It’s inevitable; with each attack you continue to strengthen this wall and to do everything in your power to make sure nothing can hurt you again. Eventually your defense is so strong that it’s doubtful anything can get in…or out. Nothing can touch you, and nothing-and no one- can hurt you. 

And then one day you realize that your walls are too strong and you’re closed in, and while things are definitely safer, you realize something is missing….and yet when you look at your defense, you’re not sure if you can, or even want to tear those walls down to seek out that missing something. You’re afraid. But your curiosity and the new desire to find that missing something starts to chip away at this wall. However, the only tool you have at your disposal is a small rock hammer.

311 sings, “There is a stone wall around your heart, nothing left now to do but to start chipping away day by day until we see it break apart…..bit by bit and one by one, if the both of us try from both the two sides, until we see the sun… ”

Here is to hoping that someone out there will see the wall and not be too discouraged. Maybe they will even help.