Enjoy the Journey

I’ve had a bit of writer’s block lately it seems and I wasn’t sure why until recently. For the past month or so I’ve had a bad case of the BLAHs for several reasons: Drama at work, having to be around extremely negative people, missing old friends, worrying about family, money problems, doubt, dumb boys, school stress, etc etc. I’ve been frustrated, annoyed, angry, and grumpy. My dad always tells me to “Enjoy the Journey”…meaning, that while I’m working towards my long-time goals for school and work and such, to be sure and enjoy all the little things along the way. I usually try to live my life with this in mind, and yet this past month has been so stressful and negative that I’ve temporarily lost that positive mindset. I dwell on the past, hate those who’ve done me wrong, and let what others say affect me. I’ve found myself wondering…Why is it that happiness can be so fleeting? Why is it that one day something will make me happy but not the next? Why is it that I let other people’s drama and negativity affect me? Life can be hard, stressful, confusing….but such is life right? Life will never be perfect and isn’t meant to be. How else would we be able to learn from our mistakes and grow as a person? According to the Dalai Lama, self-discipline is a big part of becoming happy. You can either succumb to sadness by dwelling on the past and being too hard on yourself, or train your brain every day to think more positively. The Dalai Lama also says that our enemies are our greatest teacher and that we should be grateful for them. Who else could teach us such patience? So here I go…My goal for this month is to change my attitude and my way of thinking. I’m going to stop being so negative and stressed out and force myself to be positive until it actually happens. I’m going to stop hating those who’ve done me wrong. I’m going to learn from my mistakes and do better next time. I’m going to stop letting other people’s drama and negativity affect me, and instead be the positive one that people can count on. I’m going to have more confidence in myself and not feel inferior. I’m going to be honest in my life and in my writing so that the words may flow smoothly and won’t cause writer’s block anymore.