Change of plans

Well an update on the whole nanny in nyc idea I had a few weeks ago...I have decided against it. The lady really liked me and she had a WAY cute family and she said she was really interested in me but I just told her that I have changed my mind. I have prayed about it and got an answer to stay at home and keep going to school. I think I was just using nyc as a way to escape and go somewhere new. Last night I was having a bit of a breakdown and was crying and my wonderful, amazing boyfriend gave me the best advice, as usual. All i've been thinking about lately is how I wanna see the world and travel and Brandon made me realize that I have my whole life ahead of me to do that. I knew that before but I have this fear that ill die young and what if I never get the chance to do those things so I almost feel rushed to do all the things Ive always wanted to do. There was more to it then that, but it was a long and personal convo. Anyways, he told me that Im always living in the past or the future and I need to start living in the moment. He told me that if he died today he would be okay with it because he has his amazing friends and he has made a different in peoples lives. He said that once you die, no one cares if you've been around the world, they will just have the memories of you. This conversation was going on while we were driving back from getting pizza, and he told me "you need to live in the moment and remember the little things, like splitting a pizza with your boyfriend" I can't believe how lucky I am to have such an amazing boyfriend. He teaches me new things every day and as long as I have such amazing people in my life I know i'll be okay! :)